At least for now. My goal was to complete my 15-minute aerobic/pilates DVD workout 3 times last week but I only did it twice. Though I didn’t meet my goal, surprisingly, I’m happy about my progress. I tried, and that’s good enough. Thinking this way is also progress: I’m not beating myself up about not reaching my goal.
Since mid- to late-August, I’ve been pushing myself, driving myself places such as shopping for Brian’s birthday presents and a series of dentist appointments — even unexpected ones. I started therapy again and have been taking the El to get there, and that includes about 20 minutes of walking, round trip.
I still have a few dentist appointments coming up including a root canal, which I’ve never had done before. I’ve been putting off seeing my family doctor about this skin discoloration on my right shin, which begins at the cortisone injection site from when I sprained my ankle last spring. Now, the site stings and it looks like a rash has developed so I can’t put that appointment off any longer. I also have a flu screening coming up as well as my regular pdoc and therapy appointments. And I’m planning to drive myself or take the El on my own to most of these.
On top of that, there was the road trip to Columbus, my blog was hacked this past weekend, and all of the other small stresses that add up to a ton of stress — not all of it bad — I’ve been getting out more socially. Yesterday, for example, I had a really good day. We went to a belated birthday brunch for Brian, and although my sister and brother-in-law couldn’t make it, we had a really good time with my mom.
Today, however, I’m completely overwhelmed. I made myself get out of bed and do my morning chores. I made myself shower and get dressed. But these basic things have been harder and harder to do since we got back from Columbus. The good thing is that I’ve recognized that I’m pushing myself to do more and more things — pushing myself too hard, which is a cycle I’ve been through in the past and always ends up with me falling flat on my face and unable to get out of bed for days or weeks.
The good thing is that I saw this and am cutting back to only 2 of these health appointments a week. Earlier today I thought I had finally fallen and was back at square one yet again, but I’m just having a bad day. Yes, I was on my way back to the beginning but the fact that I’ve seen this and am not going to continue pushing myself is progress. Working out will just have to wait.
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It’s good that you recognize that you haven’t fallen back to square one. I know it’s hard to forgive yourself for small setbacks, but it’s so important to just move on and try again another day.
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Yeah, that’s a big step for me — I’ve always had a hard time seeing the forest for the trees.
you are doing really great, not everyday is going to be as productive as you want but you are doing the best you can, that’s all you can do.
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Thanks, Robin.
I am so happy for you! I have had quite a setback when I moved. I had an injury just before I moved that sidelined 2 yrs. of exercise… now I am stalled and not feeling that great about it! I should tell myself I am not back at square 1… but my “self” has loud tapes… {SIGH}
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Thank you, Wes.
I know what you mean. After the injury I ate all kinds of junk to cope. And yeah, those tapes are way too loud and the volume knob seems stuck, but all we can do is try turning it down even 1/32nd of a notch at a time, and that’s progress.