Knee Update

My PCP finally called late yesterday afternoon with good news — nothing’s torn, just some inflammation, possibly tendonitis. He said “activity as tolerated” is OK, but if the pain’s too much I have to back off. That’s the good news.

Meanwhile, I had my first pdoc appointment in possibly over a month, earlier in the afternoon, because they moved to a new building. After taking my usual morning dose of Klonopin and an Ativan because I hadn’t received the MRI results yet, I was still shaking, nauseous, and in tears the entire drive there (even though Brian and I did a dry run on Sunday), and all the way into his office. Even if my knee was totally fine, I would have been anxious anyway, having to go to a new place and because I was supposed to start goalie camp last night, but not that bad.

The bad news is, my knee still tingles and sometimes the pain still shoots from my knee to my ankle when I stand or walk. It isn’t excruciating, but I experience discomfort when I walk. So there was no way in hell that I could have gone to goalie camp last night, doing all sorts of weird knee things that goalies do for two hours, and for three nights in a row? I had to drop out, and this has really depressed me. At least my regular goalie coach on the JIL understood and advised me to rest it and is giving me a full refund for the camp.

I’m going to try out my new knee brace at rat hockey this Saturday, where if I decide to get off the ice after ten minutes, everything will be fine. Anyway, goalies play free, and it isn’t like a game situation. Then I’ll take a week off, but maybe go to noon skate next Wednesday to skate with my pads on and definitely to the JIL on the 20th. Fortunately, it’s every other Friday, which means I’ll probably play rat every other Saturday.

I don’t have a game again ’til the 23rd, when I’ll be subbing for another team, and then another game on the 26th with my own team. I should be going to the gym every other day but using the stationary bike (which I’m getting used to, though it’s hell on my ass) instead of the treadmill and doing my goalie stretches that I always do afterwards, and then doing pilates on the days I don’t go to the gym, along with my goalie stretches. Plenty of stretching, the PCP said.

Of course there’s a caveat: if the pain hasn’t cleared by the time I finish my knock-me-off-my-ass anti-inflammatory that I only take at night, then the next step is physical therapy. Still, it’s better than surgery.

Today should be a pilates day, but I’m still recovering from the anxiety and trauma of yesterday, so I’m just staying home and trying to visit blogs I haven’t visited in a while and play Xbox. Originally, I had planned on doing my pilates, going about my regular day and then some retail therapy, but I didn’t get up until after noon, partially because of the anti-inflammatory and probably because I only got four hours sleep the night before because I was a total basket case about the MRI results. Anyway, it’s just started thundering, so I definitely don’t want to be outside.