anhedonia, that is. though we didn’t work out yesterday, i drove Brian to work and drove to 5 different stores to complete errands the whole rest of the morning–just like any normally functioning person might do–and then i picked him up from work. from there we went to the couples counselor, who told me that i should really call my therapist to make an appointment. i left her a voice mail today.
Brian and i told ourserlves that beginning today, we will once again start our morning workout routine. it almost didn’t happen, but i managed to force myself out of bed. we went to the gym for the first time in about a week, and it felt good. so why do i still feel so shitty?
i didn’t want to go to noon skate today, nor do i want to go to open studio time at the art center to work on my projects, neither of which is like me at all. all i wanted to do for a while was play mindless computer games, which i did and now i’m bored. i don’t have the gumption to visit blog friends. i don’t have the gumption to e-mail or call people, except for Brian so i can complain and ask him what i should do. i haven’t even eaten a thing yet today, but nothing sounds good and anyway, i have no appetite.
i’m agitated and feeling batty as ever. :[
*many hugs* Thinking of you – very good that you called your therapist. I know how it feels when you just can’t bring yourself to do anything even though you want to, and calling and leaving her a message was the right thing to do.
I have days like that. And sometimes days turn into weeks and months (like this summer). It is very hard to get out of it but I did somehow.