i wanted to blog about this last week, but due to circumstances, i’ve been much too anxious, agitated, angry, sad, and just all around moody (plus i’m PMSing). a week ago this past Monday, the staff at IOP decided that i was doing well enough to decrease the days i attend and then to phase me out. i’d been going M – Th, and my new schedule was to be M, W, Th. i didn’t realize that it would start that week. so that’s what got my anxiety rising. other than that, i was doing really, really, well.
Tuesday i find out from Brian–who the Program Coordinator called, and not me–that i’ve maxed out my outpatient mental health benefits for the whole rest of the year. this includes visits to my psychiatrist and therapist. when i left IOP Monday afternoon, i felt rattled. when i got this news, i felt fucked.
obviously, when i started IOP at the end of June, the Program Coordinator didn’t check to see how many visits i’m allowed so we could plan my treatment and discharge accordingly. i was really nervous about having Tuesday “off,” and then Wednesday was to be my last day??? what the fuck???
there’s more to tell, but i’ll leave it here for now. besides, i don’t want to get all worked up about it. it’s bed time and i need to try to relax.
Really like the site. Keep it up. I have my own Bipolar related site at http://bipolarperspective.blogspot.com/ It’s called A Bipolar Perspective. Hope you like it.
you’ll be ok barb. Professionals think you’re doing well. Which is a validation above and beyond just hinking that things are going well.
As for the benefit running out, yeah it’d be nice if they could plan that better. Bastards
Zachary: thanks for stopping by.
dan: i hope your nose and cold are better!
you’re right about what the professionals say, and i am doing better. i believe the depression is in remission, but now my anxiety is through the roof. i’m managing that fairly well, i think.