i have to admit, i feel different. i’m not sure exactly how i feel, but something’s different. maybe i’m manic? i’ve been driving recklessly–like an absolute maniac (haha!)–which is typical manic behavior for me. my patience is thin.

the ECT really, really, really affected my memory. yesterday, it took me a minute to remember what year it was–i thought it was 2005 at first. today i couldn’t remember how to get to a coffee shop that Brian and i frequent. i’m at a loss over a lot of things, and the worst part is that i don’t know what all i’ve forgotten until it comes up in a situation. it’s utterly aggravating.

i don’t feel mopey or depressed, but i feel miserable and unhappy. Brian suggested that maybe it means that i am better, but the reason i’m unhappy is because i don’t have a life–haven’t really had one for the last few years.

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by Elizabeth George

Lynley was barely in this novel and Havers wasn’t in it at all. An American friend of Deborah’s is thrown in jail on the Channel Island of Guernsey. China River is suspected of murdering entrepreneur Guy Brouard. Her brother, Cherokee, shows up on Simon and Deborah’s doorstep asking for their help. The entire novel takes place on Guernsey; Simon and Deborah return to the island with Cherokee to attempt to uncover the truth. As with most of the Lynley mysteries, this one leads readers down several wild goose chases before the real killer is finally discovered.

Obviously, I’m not a huge fan of Simon and Deborah, which is the main reason I didn’t like this book. I had difficulty following the storyline, but that could be because of the memory problems I’ve had recently. In any case, not being able to remember what I read the previous hour certainly didn’t help.