i was all dressed and ready to go, even had my shoes on and everything. then the anxiety kicked in, i started feeling nauseous, and got the dry heaves. instead of asking Brian to call them to say i couldn’t make it, i fought that part of my anxiety and called them myself. too bad the line was busy both times i called. by then all i wanted was to take a nap (it was 3pm and i hadn’t fallen asleep yet, which was a surprise), so i did. Brian eventually got through to them, but we were unable to get an appointment for another month. meh.
Didn’t Make It to the Pdoc’s
February 27th, 2006 | Bipolar/Anxiety/BPD
Been there, done that….you need to go though, so hopefully you will make it next time:)
I’ve been like that so many times. Now, I make all my appts @ 5pm, call first & see how far he is beind, so I dont have to wait too long. I hope they refilled all of your scripts.
I am so sorry you got the dry heaves. Poor thing. It took a lot of courage to admit something like that online, good for you Barb. ((hugs)) You know I got nutin’ but love for ya.
i’ve done that too, barb.
i think we all have.. are you having med issues?
It’s always one month for me min between appts.
Stay with it Barb. We’re all with you!
I am sorry to hear that Barb hope you are doing okay now. TC and also thanks for the greeting!
Hang in there, Barb. Be good, fly low, stay cool.
Don’t feel bad. Yesterday I had a therapy appointment and I totally forgot about it. I just hope they don’t charge me for being a no show. I find it hard to keep all my appointments also, and they don’t like that. Don’t they know they are dealing with bipolar people here!
That’s shitty… I hope you’re doing fine now. TC.
Anyhoo, that anti-spam question is nuts. Hehe… 
Sorry you’re having anxiety attacks. I get them once in a while and hate it. I came by way of a dear friend 3T. Just wanted to stop by and say Aloha. Take care.
Yeouch! You are right in marking your accountability as a good thing. We get into this thing, sometimes, when we say “I’m mentally ill, so if I stand someone up, it’s just my illness.” We develop the habit, I think, as a way of coping with the pain of the untreated life. Then we get on our meds and we keep it up out of habit and self-stigma.
You rose above that. Good for you!
thanks for your kind words, everybody. and Ma, thanks for stopping by!
i can’t stand being crippled by anxiety, but i know it’s up to me to “feel the fear and do it anyway.” some days are just harder than others, as i’m sure everyone knows.
dan, when i have the right cocktail i only see him once a month, but since the depression has been so resistant to my meds and with this lack of energy, i’ve had to go every 2 weeks.