how fucked up is it when a frickin’ protein shake is what keeps me from getting out of bed? well, that’s what happened today, though i did get up after noon.
my sleep schedule has been completely screwed up, so of course i didn’t get up in time to go to martial arts. even if i had, i probably wouldn’t have made it anyway, because to my thinking, the longer i stayed in bed, the longer i could delay having to drink that protein shake.
at my chiropractor appointment yesterday, i somehow let him talk me into getting another tub of protein shake mix. originally, i was only supposed to finish 1 tub. then, i ended up getting a second tub because my insurance pays for supplements. if i thought the first mix tasted nasty, omg. the second one i bought, which was a different type, was a million, zillion times worse. so yesterday, i ended up buying another tub of the original stuff.
i’ve been having a hard enough time getting out of bed as it is, and my therapist identified the reason correctly: i’m avoiding something. today it was the shake. i know it sounds silly, but there was all of this anxiety wrapped up with it. with Brian’s reassurance, i ended up not drinking it. he reminded me that my therapist suggested i work on only one change at a time, after all.
in addition, my allergies were really bad when i woke up. gee, it’s a good thing i’m in the late stages of allergy symptoms or whatever imagine how much more awful i would have felt if the allergens affected me normally.
anyway, i had the worst headache, i was still very sleepy, and felt all around run down. not only did i not make it to martial arts, i didn’t make it to my therapist appointment, either. well, at least i called and got to talk to her for a bit. she reminded me about the one change at a time thing, and we rescheduled for my regular Friday time next week.
Hey Barb… that sounds really distasteful (pun intended). Have you ever asked the chiro — does he drink that stuff himself? Bet he doesn’t. I know just what you mean about staying in bed to avoid things. I do that when I hate my job or have a big ugly project that stresses me out. What is it you really enjoy doing each day? Have you thought about doing that first thing each day, as a good reason to get out of bed? I enjoy drinking coffee on the deck with the dog, watching the birds in the morning, and that gets me out of bed on weekends. Call if you want to talk, remember that we think you’re tres cool!
Diane
actually, Diane, he does drink the stuff. so does the office manager! i told him once, that I tried picturing him eating–i mean drinking breakfast, and he confirmed it: “oh, yeah, i pop some pills (dietary supplements), then take a drink of the shake, pills, shake, pills, shake.” o.O
My brother drinks protein shakes. I tasted one once and it was pretty nasty.
I LOVE protein shakes if they are combined with vanilla flavored soy milk…. but with water and shake ONLY? YIKES!!
Barb, perhaps the reason why you’re feeling so crappy is because you are not getting outside enough. I think it would be a good idea to go and drive to some beautiful park or visit the zoo. The sun might make you feel a whole lot better.
Plus… the allergies… being couped up in a house is like being in a bottle… the germs don’t really go away… that’s why you need to get out some more. Go to a bookstore … something… anything. I’m about to head out to a bookstore this morning and enjoy my damn self, heh. Wish I could be there in Chi-Town to hang out with you… I bet you could teach me a shit load about literature.
[...] he’s convinced that the problem is organic, that my body is incredibly toxic because of all the medications i’ve been on, which he’s been telling me all along. and because i’m constipated (again, due to the meds, he said), i’m not getting rid of all the waste that you’re supposed to get rid of. once again, he advocated drinking those damn nasty-tasting protein shakes. now, he wants me to drink them twice a day! [...]