“pleased to Meetro…hope you guess my name…”
MSN, AIM, YIM can all step aside now that Meetro is here. like the others, you can use Meetro to IM other people, but here’s the kicker: you’ll be able to tell how many other users are within say, 1/4 mile of you, 5 miles of you, or whatever parameters you set. looking for people for a pick-up basketball game? to go clubbing? or to–heh–plain hook up with? log on to Meetro and see who’s nearby!
not only that, you’ll be able to log on to some of your other IM accounts through Meetro. how can you beat that?
it’s free to download and super easy to use, so check it out!
how fucked up is it when a frickin’ protein shake is what keeps me from getting out of bed? well, that’s what happened today, though i did get up after noon.
my sleep schedule has been completely screwed up, so of course i didn’t get up in time to go to martial arts. even if i had, i probably wouldn’t have made it anyway, because to my thinking, the longer i stayed in bed, the longer i could delay having to drink that protein shake.
at my chiropractor appointment yesterday, i somehow let him talk me into getting another tub of protein shake mix. originally, i was only supposed to finish 1 tub. then, i ended up getting a second tub because my insurance pays for supplements. if i thought the first mix tasted nasty, omg. the second one i bought, which was a different type, was a million, zillion times worse. so yesterday, i ended up buying another tub of the original stuff.
i’ve been having a hard enough time getting out of bed as it is, and my therapist identified the reason correctly: i’m avoiding something. today it was the shake. i know it sounds silly, but there was all of this anxiety wrapped up with it. with Brian’s reassurance, i ended up not drinking it. he reminded me that my therapist suggested i work on only one change at a time, after all.
in addition, my allergies were really bad when i woke up. gee, it’s a good thing i’m in the late stages of allergy symptoms or whatever imagine how much more awful i would have felt if the allergens affected me normally.
anyway, i had the worst headache, i was still very sleepy, and felt all around run down. not only did i not make it to martial arts, i didn’t make it to my therapist appointment, either. well, at least i called and got to talk to her for a bit. she reminded me about the one change at a time thing, and we rescheduled for my regular Friday time next week.
Congratulations! You are Gabrielle Solis, the
ex-model with everything she’s every wanted? a
rich husband, a big house? and John, the
17-year-old gardener.
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Saturday8
i tried to watch ‘the excorcist’ the other night, but it is still a no-go, apparently. it’s still too creepy, although i did actually watch the pea-soup scene for the first time!
tell us what creeps you out….
1. animal (did you see those new baby pandas? kinda creepy!)
anything from the deep, deep sea
2. book
anything self-published
3. film
Candyman
4. family member
an uncle on my mom’s side
5. co-worker (past or present, including bosses & maintenance workers)
more than a few fellow teaching assistants when i was in grad school, particularly PhD students who hadn’t finished their dissertations though they had long ago run out of funding
6. food (pears creep my husband out…. ??????)
anything that remotely looks the same cooked as it does when it’s alive, or that you have to dig into its shell for the meat; usually sea food
7. computer-related game, software, image, operating system, hardware bit, video, etc.
how about a Web site? awfulplasticsurgery.com creeps me out in a good way!
8. culture or cultural practise (remember - i’m not asking you to rag on a culture, but most people would agree cannibalism is a little creepy)
cannibalism’s pretty hard to beat
i managed to get out of bed and get myself to my therapist appointment amazingly enough, since i had trouble falling asleep. we talked about all those lifestyle changes the stupid doctors want me to make, and she asked me what one change did i want to do, that i think i could realistically accomplish. going back to martial arts, i said. so she said to just concentrate on that one thing. don’t worry about going on a dairy- and gluten-free diet, and all that other stuff. just one thing. fine with me.
afterwards, i met Brian for lunch at the Weber Grill. it’s a chain, but i’d never been there, and it was good. it’s so nice that he’s working downtown now at his new job, which means we can actually have lunch together. he also gets home at a normal hour and isn’t so beat from driving through traffic or taking the Metra from the suburbs. since i have my therapist appointment at the same time each week, Brian and i decided to meet for lunch every Friday. last year we tried making Fridays “date night,” but his office was way too far to drive to. there and back? forget it. now, it’s so much easier. how nice for us to be able to do things as a couple besides buying cat food and taking out the trash!
the decision whether or not to go to martial arts today didn’t matter, because by the time i woke up class would have already started. anyway, it took me another 40 minutes to get out of bed. not only that, my lower back has been aching for the past couple of days (i really should have gone to the chiro yesterday), so it still wouldn’t have mattered even if i went. on Saturday i was in bed most of the day because it fucking hurt and no amount of Alleve was helping.
this back pain is usually tied to getting my period, but the chiro says there’s no correlation, even though as it turns out, i have a cyst on my right ovary according to those CT scans from a few weeks ago. supposedly, this is nothing to worry about. yeah, ok. then why is it that side of my back that hurts?
i’m getting plenty of sleep, but i still end up napping for about 2 hours around 3:30pm. i get really sleepy, and since i’ve gone about a week now without drinking any caffeine, i’m not using it to combat the sleepiness. the allergist confirmed that it’s because of my sinus blockage and all that, but i haven’t made another appointment to see her again. i told Brian that i’d go when he has time to see her because she won’t be able to scare him into thinking that we need to get rid of one (or all) of the cats.
speaking of the cats, because it took me so long to drag my ass out of bed yesterday, Hopper was chased and pounced on by Angelo and Hee Seop, which those 2 like to do when it’s “time” to eat. i refused to be negatively reinforced by their behavior, so i did as i always do: 1) make the bed; 2) take a shower; 3) feed the cats. when i went into the bedroom after taking a shower, i nearly sat on a steaming pile of shit Hopper left on the bed. nice.
You are Fluffy Mackerel Pudding!!? You somehow
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wonderfully fluffy world.? We should all be as
tolerant of New Taste Sensations.? And of
big-yolked eggs.
What Weight Watchers recipe card from 1974 are you?
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today i gave in and bought some new clothes because i seriously have nothing to wear but gym clothes. all my cute clothes no longer fit me. it’s still hard for me to believe that just over a year ago i was a size 6, sometimes 4, and now?heh. let’s put it this way: i bought two pairs of pants today but didn’t want to try them on. they were size 11, and they’re too tight. last year my therapist and i decided that if after a year my clothes still don’t fit me, then i’ll give them away. however, i’m still not ready to let go. part of me feels like totally giving up, and another part feels hopeful. i have to admit, though, that any flames of hope i had are turning into dying embers.
i still blame the damn Lamictal for causing all of the weight gain, but i know it’s up to me to lose it. it doesn’t make feel any better, though.
yesterday i had a very hard time dragging myself out of bed. the night before, i got my bag and equipment and stuff ready for martial arts. then yesterday morning, i spent about an hour lying in bed trying to talk myself into going, but failed.
this morning, again, i had a hard time getting out of bed and last night i suspected (decided?) that i wouldn’t make it to my chiropractor appointment today. well, i knew he’d ask if i had started going back to martial arts. i knew he’d ask if i’ve been drinking the protein shakes he prescribed (i finished the first gigantic container–he only one i had to drink, he said–and the only reason i got a second one is because he talked me into it because my insurance pays for part of it), and i haven’t because this time i tried a different kind and it tastes even worse than the first kind. i just didn’t want to hear any of it.
i was supposed to have lunch with my sister and ended up canceling because i knew there was no way i’d make it downtown in time.
the bright side of all this, at least, is that i did walk my ass to Starbucks even though i really, really didn’t want to go. but it was a nice day, and the cleaning lady was coming over and i didn’t want to be in her way. if she wasn’t going to be here today, i’m not sure that i would have made it out of the house, but i did.
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once again, i’m trying to keep track of what i eat and the number of calories, etc., no matter how much reading the list disgusts and discourages me. maybe eventually, i’ll get tired of seeing all of the crap on there and start eating less and, hopefully, better.in my defense, i did walk to Starbucks today as opposed to driving there?go, me! even though i was very sleepy tired, i sucked it up and got a decaf latte. stuck around for an hour or so reading, then walked home.
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