A Reader Writes, but Is Very Wrong
“Pikkelweezel,” an anonymous commenter who left neither an e-mail address nor URL has this to say in response to my post, “More Missed Appointments”:
Quit crying and acting like a complete friggin retard. Are you actually listening to yourself? Theres the god damn door, open it and go outside, quit acting like it’s some big project to walk out the door.
he (or she) was also kind enough to leave a tag on the tagboard to tell me that i am, in fact, a loser because i can’t get out the door. (s/he left a URL there, and when i clicked the link, it was as i expected.) this is exactly the type of ignorance i hope will be eradicated one day. clearly, s/he didn’t read the rest of the posts because if s/he had, in this post s/he would have read that i wrote:
[. . . ] i mean, how hard is it to walk out the fucking door? it isn’t, so why can’t i?
my dad tells me i need to go back to martial arts and just make myself go outside. he means well, but it isn’t that simple. if i could just “snap out of it,” i would. in a second.
i hate being depressed.
when i set out to blog about my experiences dealing with bipolar disorder, i expected to receive these types of comments, but this is the first. it doesn’t bother me personally because i know these people are simply ignorant, but it demonstrates the reality of how much mental illness is still stigmatized in our society. that bothers me.
Bipolar/Anxiety/BPD
I know what you mean. I have run into people like that. My exboyfriend used to say “snap out of it” “it’s only in your mind.” People need to be more educated on the subject. They also need to know even though they can’t physically see it, it does exist, and is very real.
April 6, 2005 9:25 pm
It’s ok Barb, the person is a dick-weed for saying it.
April 6, 2005 11:02 pm
Hiya Barb, thanks for the comments at my site. Nice to hear from you.. sorry about this negativity, it’s comments/reactions like this that make one think twice about being “out there” in real life or even in cyber life. I fully understand the missed things in life as lately that is all I have been doing, not getting things done, not being the person I know I “should” be. I hope you manage to realize how insignificant this commenter is/was and don’t take it to heart. The whole point of these blogs is to help ourselves, part of healing …
part of living…
take care of yourself,
helen
April 7, 2005 7:55 am
I looked the guy up on google, and it turns out he’s a tow truck driver in Georgia that complains a lot about his ex-wife and having to pay more in child support whenever he gets a raise. So a really quality human being all the way around, I’d say.
April 7, 2005 12:42 pm
Barb, I’m sorry that you received a comment like that. You are an inspiration to me as because as you know I suffer from severe depression. Anyone who has ever been depressed knows how awful it is and what it can do to a person. Something must be “going around” because I, too, have not felt like leaving my house this past week. I’m tired, I’m lonely and I’m sad for no particular reason and if Pikkelweezel doesn’t like it he can kiss my *ss!
April 8, 2005 7:57 pm
Hi Barb. You are a sweet person. I am sorry that someone would be so mean for no reason to you. But have you looked at it as maybe he has a point, but he is just not so eloquent?? I mean mental illness is mental. I think you can fix it. Even doctors say, people can heal mental problems. It happens everyday, you just have to want it.
I did, because i did not want to be that way anymore. I was schitzophrenic, which is BAD. BAD BAD. it was scary, and dark, and soooo sad all the time. I did not want to live. I did not talk to my friends. I did not eat. I layed in my house and waited to die. But one day I did not want my pills, and i did not want to be crazy anymore. I did not want to live like that. one day i believed i could be better, i really really wanted to be better.
i thought about it, and it was really mental. It was not real and physical like a broken leg, and even broken bones heal, why not my soul(my mind)? so, one day, i decided to get better. i decided to be happy. to turn off the tv. to turn off the stress. to get away from bad people. to turn off all the bad things in this bad bad country. to change my life in one day. i became more spiritual. i prayed and prayed. and prayed. and you know what? god answered me and there was peace, quiet still peace in me. i am not crazy anymore. you can be better. there is hope, without tons of pills. just they way god made pretty barb. the mind is a wonderful thing.
i think i can see this between the crap in this guys message. you can be better without meds. but you have to want too, and then just do it. just get out of the mix, modern society is made to kill you. you were not made to be this way. you are a good person, a strong person. i am sorry for so much type. i hope you get better barb.
April 11, 2005 10:54 am
*Hugs*
You don’t deserve to put up with crap like that ruffian.
April 13, 2005 3:36 am
You need meds. But Mike is right, you also need to go out the door. I know. Sometimes you just have to force yourself to do stuff.
April 26, 2005 7:14 am
You are a liar. I left my email address and my site address, my blog is linked to on my site. Nice try. Now you are proven to be a freak and a liar. I’m negative?? I’m a useful part of society,,unlike you people. Sickness,, get up, walk to the friggin door and open it, DONE! Talk about needing to grow up, look at yourself.
P.S. Dont bother trying to block my IP again, I have more IP’s than you have ways to block them.
May 6, 2005 3:02 pm
A simple google of my name will find all the info you need, what sense would it make to try and post anonymous you retard.
May 6, 2005 3:04 pm
Nice try Pantheranon. Too bad you’re not as slick as you think. If you checked some other links when you Googled me you would have noticed that you found one of about 10 different profiles associated to my name. If you read any of my Pikkel Mail on my site, you would realize that I become whatever I need to be in that particular case.
May 6, 2005 3:56 pm