More Missed Appointments
well, i didn’t make it to the chiropractor on Saturday. and once again, i stayed indoors for the entire weekend. what am i talking about? i stay inside every single day, just about. it was really nice out, too.
i didn’t go to PHP today. Brian and his co-workers were going to have lunch with their boss because she’s leaving the company. that meant that i would have had to eat lunch by myself or with the other patients. all i can say is that there was much more camaraderie among the patients at the PHP i went to last year. (i realize that i still haven’t written about what upset me so much last Thursday–it was a new patient who started on the second full day that i went. i’m still trying to process it.) anyhow, i was very anxious about the lunch situation. my solution? stay home.
tomorrow i’m for sure going to go. i know this is supposed to help me. i finally got in touch with my therapist today and she thinks it would be a good jumping off point for me to start doing things again. i should be in bed now, of course, since it’s after 2am, but i’m not sleepy. if i have to, i’ll just roll out of bed, thrown on some clothes and head out the door in the morning.
Bipolar/Anxiety/BPD
Hmm. Good luck Barb!!!
April 5, 2005 1:10 pm
I know what you mean about going out. I never go anywhere anymore and because of that I no longer have ANY friends.
It seems as it is getting worse as I get older. I am not acting out like I did when I was younger, but it seems like the anxiety is getting worse, I guess.
Stupid me, I always forget to tell my doctor everything. My mom always complains that I go in there and say “I am fine.”
April 5, 2005 4:31 pm
Quit crying and acting like a complete friggin retard. Are you actually listening to yourself? Theres the god damn door, open it and go outside, quit acting like it’s some big project to walk out the door.
April 6, 2005 6:50 am
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December 17, 2005 9:42 pm