Back Pain Causes Depression–Maybe Even Weight Loss!

i made it to the chiro on Monday with Brian. according to the doctor, i have what he calls “flabby butt syndrome,” which means that my butt muscles aren’t developed to where they should be because when i walk, my strides are too short. so he gave me some exercises to do every other day. i did them for the first time last night, and let me tell you, i was nearly in tears because of the pain. it was excruciating.

in fact, when i woke up yesterday morning, my back was killing me so there was no way i was going to go to martial arts. that depresses me more because i want to go, but i can’t.

i saw the pdoc today. he said that pain plays a big factor in terms of contributing to people’s depression. so like, who wouldn’t be depressed if they were in this much pain? that makes me feel a little better, sort of. anyhow, beginning tomorrow i’m taking an increased dose of Wellbutrin.

the pdoc also encouraged me to go to PHP if i can. Brian is going to check with his insurance, etc. and the hospital to make sure everything is in place. the doctor said that i need to get out of the house for a few hours at a time instead of just an hour or so here and there. he hopes to have me back working in the fall. that thought scares me. i mean, what work would i do? the idea of teaching seems so foreign right now.

i finally remembered to call my therapist today to reschedule an appointment. haven’t heard back yet, though. Friday i’m back at the chiro’s and at the pdoc in two weeks. Monday i have a follow-up appointment with the ENT. this is why i try to blow off going to doctors for as long as i can–it seems like i’m always at one healthcare provider or another.

i’ll end with good news: since my last pdoc appointment i’ve lost 7 lbs.!!! yay!!!!!