any new thing that your humans bring home is a toy–and so is its box!

(sorry for the late post!)

My Star Wars battle name, according to the Battle Name Configurator, are:

LS:  Captain Natbar Trulassertagger
DS:  Admiral Barnat Doomwheelie

What’s yours?

what do you mean, “where’s the ‘after’ picture?” this is the after picture.

today was my first full day of PHP. it’s still too early for me to say if i like it or not, or if it’s helping, but the fact that it’s getting me out of the house is definitely a step in the right direction. one thing’s for certain: it’s very different from the PHP i went to last year, not in a good or bad way, just different. i’m not going to get into that right now, though.

Brian and i showed up yesterday for the intake interview, during which i didn’t have to fill out any questionnaires or forms, for that matter. i just had to sign a bunch of paperwork. while we were meeting with the therapist in charge, the other patients were doing their check-in.

the next group started around 10 or so, and i joined in then. there were only 7 of us, which was kind of nice. that went the way i expected it to–as any group therapy session goes, i guess. i didn’t realize that there was another group meeting at the same time, and when our session was over, we reconvened in the main therapy room for like an educational discussion or whatever about meds.

the people in the other group, maybe 4 total? well, they aren’t as high functioning as the people i was with. i don’t know what criteria they use to determine whether or not someone functions at a high or low level, but there’s a difference. anyway, this one guy, i’ll call him “Dude,” continually interrupted the nurse who was leading the group, blurting out various names of medications, repeating some of them, and was just out…of…control.

when i arrived at the hospital, i was already a bundle of nerves, incredibly anxious. near the end of the session i was in, i talked some, and i kind of had to struggle not to go off because of how frustrated i am with myself and with the depression. by the time i was in the other room with Dude, i couldn’t take it anymore. i wanted to tell him to shut the fuck up. inappropriate, and the guy probably can’t even help it. but that’s how i felt.

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List/Option No. 4 – Project 32 – Other Submissions

Things You Love? Alphabetized. I went back in the archives an entire year to see what list projects we’ve done and, oddly enough, none of them deal specifically with things you love. But making a list of things you love is just too easy, and the point of Alchera is to challenge the creative mind. So, not only are you to make a list of things you love, but you are to do it with the alphabet. That’s still too easy in my opinion, so you’ve also got to come up with at least two things for each letter. ‘X’ is really going to be tricky. (Example: Aenima & And All That Could Have Been, Blueberry muffins & ? this is a lot harder than I thought? Bourbon?) This kind of project takes time.

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