is it me, or does Bono really look more and more like Robin Williams?

if you lack the ability to weave through 3 or 4 lanes going in the same direction while maintaining the crawl of traffic–in other words, drive like a cabbie–then do yourself and everyone else a favor by taking public transportation when you’re in the Loop or on Mag Mile.  i’m not saying this to be mean.  i’m just telling it like it is.

we never did watch a movie Friday night, but neither of us felt like it. i think Brian continued to sleep on the couch and i read.

i don’t even remember what we did yesterday. oh, he got a lot done: grocery shopping, some errands. i pretty much wasted the day and didn’t get in the shower ’til 7pm.

today was worse. Brian’s sick with a cold, which means that i’ll actually have to take care of myself. in some ways it’s good–it forced me to feed the kitties breakfast, which i haven’t done in months. he and i used to split the feeding. i planned to collect all of the garbage, but when i started to, i broke down and had a tantrum. an actual, face to the floor, sobbing, crying, temper tantrum. i cannot even tell you how embarrassing this is. a grown woman acting like a 4-year-old. honestly, i felt like i was as helpless as a 4-year-old, with no one to take care of me; i was scared.

in my rage, i kicked a small, plastic trash bin and it just grazed Hopper’s head. after i realized what i had done, i felt even worse and wanted to cut myself because i felt like i needed to be punished, but i didn’t. cut myself, that is.

this is what it’s like to be borderline. i hate it. just when i think i’ve shed these behaviors, they suddenly come up and bite me on the ass. i managed to salvage the rest of the day, but i was bored and restless and had absolutely no interest in doing any of the things i like to do.

You can now play Star Wars for Sega here. Video games sure have come a llllloooonnnngggg way. And now I remember why I never liked those Mario Brothers type games. I’m not coordinated enough to press the button to make the character jump while having him move to the right of the screen at the same time.

You can also play Star Wars: Super Return of the Jedi and Star Wars Episode I: Obi-Wan’s Adventures for GameBoy, and Star Wars and Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back for Nintendo. The GameBoy and Nintendo games didn’t load for me, either because I’m using Firefox or I’m just too impatient.

I’ve started playing KotOR again for old time’s sake and because I need a Carth fix. However, I’ve put it on hold because I’ve got the prototype engine so I’m ready to race. I’m just not ready to have Bastila bitching at me. I may go back to a game I recently started in KotOR II. There’s still so much I haven’t uncovered in that one. Plus, this time around I’m playing LS female with LS male Revan.

i’m convinced more than ever that Quin is using Khaleen.  in Republic #72, she pleads with him to forget about hunting down the second Sith and instead, find a nice, quiet place for themselves in the galaxy.  what does he say?