Comments on: In My Absence… http://bloggochicago.com/2005/01/15/in-my-absence-2/ blah blah blah from the northwest side Mon, 05 Jan 2009 23:51:03 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.6.2 By: Michelle http://bloggochicago.com/2005/01/15/in-my-absence-2/#comment-1625 Michelle Mon, 30 Jan 2006 03:28:08 +0000 http://bloggochicago.com/?p=503#comment-1625 Totally understandable. That's one of the reasons I took a month off from journaling/blogging. I enjoyed doing it, but I've gotten to the point lately where I'm happier vegging on the sofa or playing my Sims 2 game. I have no structured time whatsoever, and most of my good intentions, like exercising and cleaning house, keep getting put off unless my husband helps out with the motivation. I have terrible sleep patterns as well. I've always been the type to stay up late, and lately it's been 3 or 4am before I get in bed, then I sleep until 2pm (for example, it's almost 2 am as I type this). That does not work so well when you're waiting for substitute job calls. But if you don't feel like posting, then don't. I didn't want to really talk about my depression in my journal, but I eventually did anyway. It helped a little, but like you said, talking about it made me admit it was a problem, and I HATE admitting something is wrong. Teaching just one course might be a good way of getting slowly back into the mode of working. I left my job in March 2003 and stopped working entirely for 6 months. I then started subbing for schools in November, and it was the best thing I could've done because I was able to slowly integrate into working again. I'm sure you would be fine teaching; try not to doubt yourself too much and just dive into it. I was nervous when I first started subbing because I had NEVER tried it before and since I'm 23, I was scared the kids wouldn't listen and would take advantage of me. I still signed up, and now I love it! I hope you get to feeling better soon. Just try not to stress out and think of yourself as horrible for being this way. It is NOT your fault, and you are not alone in thinking that way. Just try to take one day at a time. I'll be thinking about you! Totally understandable. That’s one of the reasons I took a month off from journaling/blogging. I enjoyed doing it, but I’ve gotten to the point lately where I’m happier vegging on the sofa or playing my Sims 2 game. I have no structured time whatsoever, and most of my good intentions, like exercising and cleaning house, keep getting put off unless my husband helps out with the motivation.

I have terrible sleep patterns as well. I’ve always been the type to stay up late, and lately it’s been 3 or 4am before I get in bed, then I sleep until 2pm (for example, it’s almost 2 am as I type this). That does not work so well when you’re waiting for substitute job calls.

But if you don’t feel like posting, then don’t. I didn’t want to really talk about my depression in my journal, but I eventually did anyway. It helped a little, but like you said, talking about it made me admit it was a problem, and I HATE admitting something is wrong.

Teaching just one course might be a good way of getting slowly back into the mode of working. I left my job in March 2003 and stopped working entirely for 6 months. I then started subbing for schools in November, and it was the best thing I could’ve done because I was able to slowly integrate into working again.

I’m sure you would be fine teaching; try not to doubt yourself too much and just dive into it. I was nervous when I first started subbing because I had NEVER tried it before and since I’m 23, I was scared the kids wouldn’t listen and would take advantage of me. I still signed up, and now I love it!

I hope you get to feeling better soon. Just try not to stress out and think of yourself as horrible for being this way. It is NOT your fault, and you are not alone in thinking that way. Just try to take one day at a time. I’ll be thinking about you!

]]> By: April http://bloggochicago.com/2005/01/15/in-my-absence-2/#comment-279 April Wed, 31 Dec 1969 18:00:00 +0000 http://bloggochicago.com/?p=503#comment-279 Holy cow, my little brother used to take Ritalin because he has ADHD. Now, he's off drugs...tryn' to make it without it. Hey, it took a lot of courage to come online like this and spill your guts out like this, and for that, I am very honored and grateful. You know, I know this seams trivial, but I still feel bad about what I told you about with the whole professor job things. I was in no place to tell you why or why you could not get the kind of job you wanted. I can be a real jackass sometimes, and for that, I am truly sorry. I hope that Brian rubs your feet and makes you feel good with some nice hot cocoa or something. Tell your little kitties I said hello too, k? Oh, and before I leave... guess what? That bastard Pollack gave me a D+. Grrrr. So yeah, he's still an a-hole. Holy cow, my little brother used to take Ritalin because he has ADHD. Now, he’s off drugs…tryn’ to make it without it. Hey, it took a lot of courage to come online like this and spill your guts out like this, and for that, I am very honored and grateful.

You know, I know this seams trivial, but I still feel bad about what I told you about with the whole professor job things. I was in no place to tell you why or why you could not get the kind of job you wanted. I can be a real jackass sometimes, and for that, I am truly sorry.

I hope that Brian rubs your feet and makes you feel good with some nice hot cocoa or something. Tell your little kitties I said hello too, k? Oh, and before I leave… guess what? That bastard Pollack gave me a D+. Grrrr. So yeah, he’s still an a-hole.

]]> By: RS/Grant http://bloggochicago.com/2005/01/15/in-my-absence-2/#comment-280 RS/Grant Wed, 31 Dec 1969 18:00:00 +0000 http://bloggochicago.com/?p=503#comment-280 Gah, sorry. I've forgotten to check your blog recently, or I would have noticed the lack of posting and emailed you! :( :( Sorry, I still care about you. I haven't forgotten. I'm just very lazy and xenophobic, so I don't write back as much as I should. I'm very sorry you're feeling this way. I wish there was something I can do to help. The best I can do is *hugs*. I hope you get well soon. You've been in my prayers, even if I haven't checked up on you as much as I should. Some days, I don't even understand my OWN antisocial laziness... meh. Please, please, magically somehow get better soon. I just want you to feel better. :) Gah, sorry. I’ve forgotten to check your blog recently, or I would have noticed the lack of posting and emailed you! :( :(

Sorry, I still care about you. I haven’t forgotten. I’m just very lazy and xenophobic, so I don’t write back as much as I should.

I’m very sorry you’re feeling this way. I wish there was something I can do to help. The best I can do is *hugs*. I hope you get well soon. You’ve been in my prayers, even if I haven’t checked up on you as much as I should.

Some days, I don’t even understand my OWN antisocial laziness… meh.

Please, please, magically somehow get better soon. I just want you to feel better. :)

]]> By: Plutospawn http://bloggochicago.com/2005/01/15/in-my-absence-2/#comment-281 Plutospawn Wed, 31 Dec 1969 18:00:00 +0000 http://bloggochicago.com/?p=503#comment-281 Good to see an update. You were gone for so long, but the only way I knew how to contact you was lj and here, but since you weren't updating... I don't know, I guess I thought that you had gotten bored with this like Lord Valentai. It probably doesn't mean much, but I wish you the best with your problems and hope you begin to update regularly. (If only because I have an overactive imagination and a penchant for worst case scenarios, so every time there's a gap in your posts I can only jump to conclusions.) :-) Good to see an update. You were gone for so long, but the only way I knew how to contact you was lj and here, but since you weren’t updating… I don’t know, I guess I thought that you had gotten bored with this like Lord Valentai. It probably doesn’t mean much, but I wish you the best with your problems and hope you begin to update regularly. (If only because I have an overactive imagination and a penchant for worst case scenarios, so every time there’s a gap in your posts I can only jump to conclusions.) :-)

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